SweetHoney <3

100 years.

2010-12-17T13:26:00.002+08:00

it's been like hundred years i didnt update my blog. (: well, between this " 100 " years, many things happened. but i'm too lazy to write everything out. as long as everyone around me was happy, that's great enough. finally the most painful days were over, we're all set free now. we can go whereever we want. but UNluckily, my father's worker had some personal reason, and she resigned. so, i think i'll need to help him for about a few months maybe? so i think i wont be as free as others. :/

oh no !

2010-11-10T12:06:00.002+08:00

SPM ! coming in few more days...

13 days ! work hard in these 13 days! and we can enjoy what we want to do next !
haih, so sad. sej sej sej ~ everyday sej ! after spm, i can throw away the sej book ! no need to see it anymore.. yay !

GO AWAY.

2010-10-28T20:28:00.004+08:00

you think yourself very HOT is it? go away please, i dont even want to look at your stupid face. i also dont know why last time i'll think that you're a good looking person, but now, NOT anymore. someone might know what i'm trying to say :D like maggie.
UNDERSTAND? (:

love once.

2010-10-16T15:03:00.004+08:00

JYJ is coming tomorrow. But i didnt buy the ticket ! so sad, thought can go to the airport to see their "real" faces, but no one can drive me to go there. AH ! finally they want to come here, but i cant go.. nevermind, go and buy their album better. :D

MY LOVE FOREVER!

난 많이 사랑해요! ♥

(:

2010-10-08T16:34:00.002+08:00

my father just bought a new camera :D canon eos 60D.

Piranha.

2010-09-09T21:28:00.003+08:00

watched piranha with maggie. :D the movie's quite disgusting(when people bit by piranha), haha. but nice to watch.

behave.

2010-09-09T21:23:00.003+08:00

i saw something funny just now. a silly girl scolding people when her english's not well too. oh please lah, before you scold other people, check properly whether yourself were good at it or not. dont simply scold people using those stupid words lah. when i read that , i really laughed out because of your english. maybe there's improvement on your english , but that doesnt mean you can simply scold other people LOR. maybe my english also not that good, but i wont simply scold people's english BAD lo. so, please behave.

:D

2010-08-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU MAGGIE !!! :D

>.>

2010-08-18T14:58:00.002+08:00

what you said was right.. STUPID fish, you think you're what? erhem, you're so not Gentleman. doing things like that, will just lower your grade. PLEASE , do you think all of these're true?
fishy fishy fishy, i found someone better than you. at least he wont do those things like you did. go away ~ fish.

wth?

2010-07-30T20:06:00.001+08:00

if you really did something like that, i swear i'll slap you.
你没有资格说我，你连那个胆量都没有，真失败。

Hy.

can't you see it , baby.

2010-07-27T21:01:00.003+08:00

worth it? (:

CRY.

2010-07-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

Even if tears fall now, I will smile a little later.

step forward.

2010-07-15T18:54:00.002+08:00

每次我看到你和她在一起，我的心，好像被针刺一样。不是因为你和她在一起的原因，而是因为，你没有发现我的存在。

could you?

2010-07-10T15:29:00.001+08:00

“因为我跌了很多次，所以就算再跌倒，也不算什么。”

The Cut.

2010-05-19T19:58:00.002+08:00

The clock stroke 9pm. Rough music from the night clubs began to break the silent street. From far end gushed down a young man, of age around 17, towards the glittering region. On the way he hit a few strangers by the shoulder and he was shouted on being rude, but he didn’t care. He dashed as his fierce eyes searched for the title—ROGUE.
There it is.
Without a second thought Nicky stomped his way in. But the tall man standing on the main entrance ceased him.
“Let me in,” urged Nicky as he tried to break through the huge man’s guard.
“An underage like you are not allowed to enter,” said the man, followed by a sardonic chuckle.
Without paying much attention to the man’s words, Nicky used all his strength to break in, but his hands were easily tangled by the tall man. The other men behind laughed as they saw the pain shown on Nicky’s face.
“Let him go.” A voice came from behind. A voice so familiar to Nicky. “He’s just a kid, he’s harmless.”
“Ben.” Nicky glared fiercely on the smart looking man. “I want to see Tracy!”
“Tracy?” Ben paused for a moment, as he repositioned his fine glasses. “What could have happened to Tracy?”
“You could stop pretending!” yelled Nicky, “I know your ugly deeds. You deceived young women to work under you— to please men in this despicable place!” He continued, “The girls fell for your cunning trap, and even Tracy—”
“Could you guys shut his mouth for a while?”
Right after Ben’s speaking, the men laid their fists on Nicky. A few ladies from inside the building shrieked as they saw the scene.
Nicky was defenseless. He was not a good fighter, and yet he never was. For a moment he regretted. He should have joined the Karate training held last month in his school, and that now he would not be beaten up so badly, at least, too badly.
He could not stand firm any longer, as he landed his shoulder on the dirty floor.
“You stay alive until this big because of me— my money.” Ben approached the injured Nicky, and grabbed him on his collar. “If you don’t like my style, and think my money is dirty, stop using it and leave home. I wouldn’t care less. You’re just an eye sore.”
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Ben’s subordinates carried Nicky to the back street and threw him onto the garbage heap.
“That serves you well,” said one of the men. “You shouldn’t have gone against Mr. Nightlife, or who you refer to as Ben.” The men laughed as they leaved.
The aches were all over Nicky’s body. He tried to stand, but his feeble legs tripped and he fell straight on the rough, filthy ground.
“Damn it!” Nicky bit his lips. He came all the way to ROGUE to save his sister, but what had he done— got beaten up by a bunch of scum and was dumped onto the garbage heap.
He gave up on getting up, and he started to recall what had happened two days ago that made him decided to come here—
It was 2am midnight where he was still studying in his room. Then he heard voices outside. Perhaps it was Ben coming back from work, Nicky thought. But a sudden thud raised his curiosity. He walked out of his room immediately and saw an exhausted looking Tracy on the floor. Quickly, he ran towards Tracy, giving her a helping hand. Just then he noticed that Tracy’s attire was abnormally different— a partially transparent low cut shirt and a mini skirt.
“Why are you wearing these?” asked Nicky, as he insistently hoped for an answer.
“Just get back to your room and sleep. I’ll be fine.” She said as she slowly got up.
“Where did you go?”
“You don’t need to ask.” Tracy rubbed her eyes as she headed towards the stairs.
“Where did you go?”
“I said you don’t need to ask!” Tracy turned around and glared at Nicky.
“This is not right!”
“What do you mean it’s not right?” Tracy turned away. “I was just having fun in a pub. You don’t need to worry.”
“You’re lying,” uttered Nicky. “I knew it from the start.”
His words surprised Tracy. She looked at him blankly. “What do you mean?”
Without saying anything, Nicky dashed into his room, another minute he ran out and placed a name card that he found from his desk on Tracy’s palm.
Tracy’s eyes rounded when she saw the name card. It was Ben’s.
“I found this on the floor near your room last week. It might have fallen out from Ben’s pocket, I think, accidentally,” said Nicky. “Initially I was reluctant to believe it. But after I followed Ben for a few nights— he really is the owner of ROGUE, the infamous night club that provides illegal services such as prostitution!”
Tracy muted as Nicky continued. “And now that you’re wearing like this, I could guess,” Nicky paused for a while. “You did it— prostitution.”
Tracy’s face was slapped by Nicky’s words. “I was just trying to help Ben,” her disturbed and teary eyes admitted everything. “He said his business is declining drastically, and he needs more people in this unit. So I thought I could help. I’ll do anything for him to keep his business!”
“By selling your own body?”
“It doesn’t matter because I love him!”
“What’s with him that drives you crazy?” said Nicky. “He is your husband and yet he—”
“I said it doesn't matter! Don’t you remember how well he treated us after mom and dad died? He supported us by working alone! And he is the one who pays for all your education fees. Could you ever turn away from him after he has done so much to us?”

Tracy’s words kept running and running in Nicky’s mind.
But I couldn’t forgive him. He’s torturing Tracy! That’s why I wanted to confront him and take Tracy away from him!
Tap.
His thoughts were disturbed by some mild footsteps. Half-consciously, he saw two figures standing not far away from him. One was a tall guy in a black cloak; another one, who was a plump man, wore a white coat. Nicky slowly pushed his head upward to take a clearer view— to find that the latter’s mouth was gagged, eyes were patched, and limbs were tied.
“Hmm… shall I cut you on the neck? Or… shall I just directly cut you through this rounded belly?” smirked the man in black. He took out a knife from his pocket. The street light reflected the sharp, glossy knife.
The glow disturbed Nicky’s vision. It is a very sharp knife. Nicky’s heart throbbed for a second.
The fat man was helpless. He could not scream, nor could he fight back. He struggled to and fro, trying to escape from the sinister fate. But his struggle was just a barren effort. The black coated man slowly aimed his weapon on the vulnerable man’s stomach.
“It’s better to end it this way.” He gave a cold grin, and the knife was swayed. Blood splashed out from the fat man’s bloated tummy, and stained the ground. But the mysterious man seemed unsatisfied. He gave out a wicked smile as his right hand reached for the fat man’s bloody stomach— he grabbed out the victim’s kidney!
Still lying on the ground, Nicky tried to get his back up, but his shaky hands forbade him to do so. He was so afraid, but he could not run, not with these weary limbs.
The mysterious man walked towards the place where Nicky was lying, squatted down and placed his stained hand between Nicky’s cheeks.
“Greetings,” said the man politely. “People called me Jack, succeeded from the infamous killer Jack the Ripper.”
His eyes were abnormally still, and calm. He has a fair complexion. His hand was tender; contradicted to his action when he slain the fat man.
“I was in search of human kidney,” whispered Jack, with a smile. “You know, in the black market industry, it is in great demand. Anyone would pay to get it.”
Jack paused and moved his vision on the dead man. “Someone offered me a high price to kill this man. And at the same time, the EAGLES— one of the hidden organization that runs the black market, directed me to get as much human kidneys as possible. What a coincidence! Doesn’t it prove the phrase: killing two birds with one stone, if I kill this man? ”
He gave a wicked laugh. “But it doesn’t matter much to me. I don’t kill because of money. I kill because I enjoy it.”
Nicky stayed speechless as he waited for Jack to say his next words.
“Hmm… what shall I do with you?”
“… I will be killed, won’t I? ” Nicky’s eyes became focus. He was afraid. But he could not do anything to escape his fate. “And you’ll take away my kidneys…”
Jack break the cold, silent night with his laughter. Surprised by Jack’s reaction, Nicky looked blankly at Jack’s face.
“You have brave eyes! Those gave me a feeling not to cut you.” Jack exclaimed. “But what would you do to repay my kindness?”
“I…” Nicky took a breath. “…have a person that I couldn’t forgive.”
Jack listened patiently to his words.
“I don’t have much cash to pay you. But I’ll do anything if you help me to—”
Is it a right decision?
“Don’t need to worry about the payment. I’ll take his kidneys,” said Jack without hesitation. “It’s a deal.”

1st of February. It was a cold morning. Tracy was preparing breakfast in the kitchen as Ben was sitting at the dining table, flipping the newspaper. When Ben saw Nicky walking out from the bedroom, he put away his newspaper.
“So you’re still alive,” said Ben sarcastically. “And to think that you would come back and continue relying on my filthy money.”
Tracy stood still at the kitchen door, looking at the fiery Ben and the cool Nicky.
“I was regret on what I did yesterday,” said Nicky, softly. “I’m sorry for what I’ve done, and I swear I won’t go against you anymore. So please forgive me.”
“Isn’t that great?” Tracy broke the ice. “Now that everything is settled, let’s have a joyful breakfast—”
“You’re noisy, woman,” muttered Ben as he pushed up his glasses. “This is a men talk. Could you please leave and go buy me some cigarettes?”
Without hesitation, Tracy left the teas on the table, grabbed her purse, and went out of the house.
This is my chance, Nicky thought.
Ben stood up and walked into the kitchen.
“So you’re saying that you regretted?” Ben slowly opened the refrigerator and took out the bottle of mustard. At that instant, Nicky threw a few pills into Ben’s tea.
“And you said you won’t go against me anymore?” Ben continued, pouring the mustard onto the sandwiches made by Tracy.
“Not anymore,” replied Nicky. Ben gave a small laugh when he walked back to his seat.
“Prove it.” Ben insisted as he took a sip of his tea.
“How?”
“Work for me. Be one of my subordinates. Be loyal to me,” Ben said, putting down the cup of tea. “Be my slave.”
Nicky stared at the cup of tea, and replied him a smile. “I would.” He said gradually. “If you could stay alive…”
“What’s with that attitude?” Ben pulled himself up and glared at Nicky. He pushed away the cups from the table, and they smashed on the floor.
When Ben tried to approach Nicky, he felt a sudden dizziness. His legs became feeble, and he had to support his body with his hands forcefully pressing the table. He looked at the fillings from the cups that stained the floor. By then he knew that it was all a trap. He pushed himself towards Nicky, but fell over and landed on the floor.
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When Ben regained consciousness, he found himself in a small hut. His whole body was tied to the chair where he was sitting.
“Have you prepared for the worst nightmare?” Jack walked in from the entrance. Nicky followed from behind. In his hands was a box of cutting tools— knifes.
“What are you doing, Nicky?” asked Ben anxiously. “What are you trying to do to your own brother-in-law?”
Nicky remained silent. Jack got the box from Nicky’s hand and placed it on the table near the window. He took out a scalpel and wiped it with a ragged cloth.
“Beautiful isn’t it?” said Jack as he swung the scalpel in his hand. “You should be proud to be cut by this fine looking knife.”
Jack walked towards Ben. Ben kept shaking his head, and warned him not to get any closer with a shivering voice.
Nicky stood still at the corner. This was the first time he saw a frightful Ben. Ben had always been a confident and outspoken person. At that moment he had totally changed.
People do scare of death, don’t they?
Jack removed the glasses from Ben, pointed the scalpel on Ben’s cheek. He moved the scalpel smoothly down to his chin, and all of a sudden, he stabbed the knife onto Ben’s thigh. Ben gave out a loud shriek, as he kept stomping his another feet. Jack walked back to his tool case, took out a needle and a thread, and also a small bottle. He opened the bottle and splashed the filling onto Ben’s injured thigh.
It was salt.
The screams from Ben troubled Nicky. He’s a wicked person, so he deserves it. He convinced himself over and over.
Jack continued the procedure without paying attention to the pitiable man. He started to pierce Ben’s eyes by using the needle, pulled the string, and pierced again, as though Ben was a cloth; until the right eye had been completely patched, he reached for the other eye.
“Not fun,” said Jack. He was not satisfied on the torture. Nicky gazed as Jack reached for a longer knife, and this time he placed it on Ben’s right arm. He slowly moved the knife, shredded the poor man’s skin, layer by layer, out from the arm. As Ben yelled for help, Jack changed his target on the fingers. He cut off Ben’s thumb!
Nicky could not take it anymore. It was all too cruel. He ran towards the door, but was grabbed on the shoulder by Jack.
“You’re not going anywhere, kid,” insisted Jack. “Not before this guy’s dead.”
Nicky took a glance on the gasping Ben, and looked away. “Why don’t you just kill him off,” said Nicky. “And take his kidneys, right away?”
“I told you I enjoy killing.” Jack’s words turned cold. “And you agreed to witness everything.”
“But I couldn’t see anymore!”
Jack looked at the confused Nicky for a moment. “You said before you couldn’t forgive him, and want him dead, didn’t you?” Jack walked towards the box of tools, took out a cut knife. “You think he is a bad man, a wicked person.” He placed the knife onto Nicky’s palm. “That’s why you wanted him to be killed.”
“But—”
“It’s not good to hesitate after you’ve made a decision,” whispered Jack. “Now, why don’t you try it?”
Nicky looked at the cut knife in his hand.
Kill him.
“Try to cut him with your own hands.”
Kill him!
Nicky’s hand trembled as he walked closer to Ben. His feelings wanted him to kill; but his instinct was opposing. He raised his hand with the cut knife, and was ready to stab straight onto Ben’s head…
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14th February. Nicky walked along the streets and entered a small garden, where he found himself a bench to rest his legs. A few kids were chasing each other near the pond. He closed his eyes and began to wonder— what had happened to his life?
Two weeks ago Ben was found dead in a small hut near the woods. To the neighborhood, it was a tragedy; or more accurately, cruelty. Ben’s corpse was found to be awfully cut. Tracy broke down when she found out that her husband was killed ruthlessly. She was too despaired to live on without Ben. She tried to commit suicide whenever she had the chance. Nicky could not do anything to help her. She was then sent to the asylum. At the same time, ROGUE’s business was halted after the owner died. The other share holders of the night club were arrested; and the deceived ladies were sent back to their homes.
Nicky became abnormal since then. The memory of how Ben was killed was still fresh in his mind. He wanted to throw away the memory, and he started to consume pills to calm himself down. But it was useless. There were times that he craved for something— something that a normal person would not do. As he saw little creatures like birds and kittens, he would catch them and would bring them home; and he would take out a knife and started to cut them. At first he felt uneasy and disgusted; but as time flowed, he slowly took it as a pleasure. He started to buy different types of knifes, and kept them as his collection.
His life had totally changed— but he didn’t dislike it. He started to accept the fact that he likes to cut.
Suddenly, his hand phone rang. He picked up the phone, and it was a familiar voice. As he listened to the caller, he gave a small grin.
“Since when has the EAGLES changed their target to those?” answered Nicky playfully. He glanced at the children who were still playing nearby, and continued his words. “Anyway, I think I could provide you your needs.”
Nicky ended the call. He then got himself up from the bench and walked his way to the little children.

by VikkiTan

exciting.

2010-05-08T19:14:00.002+08:00

M1D1 !

MERAH ! we got the second place (overall). Our marching number 1 deco number 1. we're satisfied with it. (: many of us put in a lot of effort, and we're not disappointed.

finally, i got a bronze medal for 4x100m, yay ! this is the first time i had a medal from this school. i was the second baton. so nervous. huili was very fast, thanks to her :D

MERAH rox ! MERAH rox ! MERAH roxxxxxxxxxx ! :DDDD

mii-love.

2010-04-30T18:18:00.001+08:00

MY BEST LOOKING GUY ! (:

Poink.

2010-04-17T13:37:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was my father's birthday ! (:
16th April. Wish you'll be happy and healthy, always.

Too bad munjie's not at Kl, but nevermind, mommy said that when she comes back we'll go eat " 大大餐 ". hahaha :D

( saengil chukhahamnida ! )

oops.

2010-04-14T15:29:00.002+08:00

i've wrote an essay about someone. i still remember that time we're so close. But something happened, then we did not talk nor speak to each other. actually you're not a bad person, just that your attitude got some problem. maybe to others, you're fine and good. but to me, you really got some problem.

i remember when i'm form 3, my friends said that i'm "panas baran". i admit lah, i couldnt control my feelings that time. but then, i tried to change. and now, i couldn't said that i'm good, but at least i'm better than last time. but you, you're still the same. you've never changed.

maybe no one told you about your attitude, but then, can't you realise it yourself? your friends are leaving you. maybe i myself is not better than you, but at least i treat my friends better than you do. your friends dislike you, is because of your ownself, not other things. it's because your attitude, there's no third party or whatever.

i still remember that time you blame me, blame me for NOTHING. i didnt even do anything, then you scold me so suddenly. that time i really very very angry, but now.. slowly it became like nothing to me. i dont want myself to suffer from hating a person, so i'll just let it go.

Let It Flies Away. (:

are you ?

2010-03-28T16:30:00.004+08:00

just came back from camp. my whole body has no more energy. haih. but it's worth it. (:

maggieng, you should go this time lor. it's very fun (: but nevermind lah. since you say you're not free.

this year's camp is more challenging, harder than last year's camp. this is also the last year for form 5s to join the camp. when i first realise that i was in the different group with both maggies, i was kind of scared. and when i first realise that maggieng is not going, i became more scared. actually is because i "bu hao yi si" , maggiesudo and sohwoeijye should be pairs, then maggieng and i be pairs. now i need to be their "light bulb". :( although maggiesudo said that it's alright to be with her, but then i still felt that it's not so good. ):

in the first day of the camp, we had quite a few of activities. we reached that place around 3 something. it's quite tiring along the whole journey from school to that place. we missed the ice-breaking part because we have no time. actually , the most interesting part is the night walk. the four groups walk inside the jungle during the night time. oh, so exciting. :D but the roads are slippery, some plants have the sharp sharp dont know what thing. we used up around 2 hours or more than that to finish the whole journey. i think a lot of people get hurt during the night walk, maggiesudo and i also injured a bit only.

then the next exciting activity is the jungle trekking. i can say that this one is much more harder than the last year one. this is really jungle trekking, they have a lot rocks and slippery hills and i did something quite embarasing. when we're climbing up a hill, a very narrow hill, i almost fall down. we need to hold the rope, and climb up. but i dont know why, i slipped or something. when i was climbing up using the rope, i tripped, but luckily maggiesudo hold my hand, then i was half hang in the midair, so scary. then luckily again, one of my group members, she was climbing up, and was behind me. she helped me to twist back and maggiesudo pulled me up. woah ! at that moment i was so scared. but it's a good experience also. (:

the indoor games are also very fun, like the four commitee of prs, they planned a station game, which divide into four parts. Each group must complete the task in time, with the highest score, then you can win. but unfortunately, our group lost. actually we're quite fast when we finished the first three parts, but then when we're looking for the last station, we're some how lost. we couldn't find the last station and we're turning round and round, but at the end we found it also.

other game modules are also nice and fun. the games are thought and prepared by our beloved teachers and also the commitees. the games are mentally and physically challeging. somehow, teamwork is needed in all the acticities.

I really have fun in this camp (: hope that next year's prs will have a better and nicer camp activities.

tonight.

2010-03-23T20:00:00.001+08:00

Maggie ! WATCH THIS ! :D

Dont say sorry.

2010-03-15T20:03:00.001+08:00

MY DEAR JAEJOONG !

heart, i'm sorry.

2010-03-15T18:31:00.002+08:00

It's True, Just believe this one thing.
Everything I've said was to show you That Love.
You know it was everything to me.
You know all about it.
Be happy for me, please live more happily.
Then when you were with me.
So, my heart. So, my love.
It will hurt just a little less, And I'll hold back the tears.
Heart, I'm Sorry.
It's okay, stop crying.
Let's let go of her now.
Let's just let her go by.
Somebody better than me, Somebody better than me.
Is at her side now.
I'm holding my tears in too.
Promise me, even when she turns her back on me,
You wont go after her again.
So, my heart. So, my love.
It shouldn't be hard to bear,
And I'll hold back the tears.
Heart, I'm Sorry.
It's okay, stop crying.
Let's let go of her now.
Let's just let her go by.
Somebody better than me, Somebody better than me.
Is at her side now.
I'm holding my tears in too.
I love you, I love you.
Though I call out thousands, ten of thousands of time,
Though I cry my heart out.
She is somewhere where she can't hear me.
Let's throw out the rest of those memories.
Let's throw out the rest of that love.
Somebody better than me, Somebody better than me.
Is at her side now.
I'm holding my tears in too.
Though I miss her......

It's the lyrics from a song called " heart, i'm sorry ". It's so nice (: .

fly away.

2010-03-14T15:33:00.002+08:00

okay, now, finally.

dont ever think that you've won anything. you really think you're the winner? HAH. just because we're MORE polite than YOU. Stop thinking that you're very nice, or good or whatever. wth? do you think your english's very good? dont scold people or say anything bad about people when you're not that good. you're also the same lah okay?? somemore people's not referring to you, dont be so PERASAN please. begging you, stop thinking that person is YOU. you're just NOTHING to us. NOTHING, get it? you're like a tiny microorganism to us, actually is bacteria. well, hope you understand that.

falling in love.

2010-03-12T19:19:00.002+08:00

monday's having theory exam, ohno. i havent even touch the book, havent do any revision. haih. so sad, after the school exam still need to study. watched the "tan xiang" few days ago. Argh, that fatty guy, so annoying, keep on showing those expression, maggiesudo was also irritated by that look. and his leg, ohno! but luckily that girl didnt spend a night with him, Luckily.

and my sister, dear vaneesa, she got 8 A's for her SPM! congratulation ! before that keep on saying that the result sure will be very bad one lah, this that, see now. haiyor. this year's my turn to take the exam. ahhhh~ what should i do?

kiss-y.

2010-02-17T23:49:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday SHIMCHANGMIN!

& Happy Birthday ParkShinHye !

Dont remember.

2010-02-05T19:01:00.002+08:00

this is for a "good" T1,

you always blame us for not listening to you. but did you think about it before, that your words dont worth to be listen? And you yourself are not confident about the answer, always "ee" "er" like that. So please lah, dont force people to listen to you. If we really want to listen, we'll do it. If not, please, just let us do our things. Or else, just let us sleep lah. Pleasee. :/

and another for T2,

i'm so angry when i mention this. It's not fair for us, okay? we are always the one who start everything, and when we're not fully prepared, you scold us. it's not our fault, okay? you said the date is far more away from now, and then suddenly you said you want to start it and gave us like 2 days like that. How do you expect us to do well? Haiyor.

And And,

KIM JAEJOONG ! is soooooo hot, handsome actually. MaggieSudo said that he's very handsome in the MV of Wrong Number. haha, yes, it's true ! but he's always that handsome (:

stop pretending.

2010-01-13T19:09:00.002+08:00

She's a really irritating person.

You really think people dont know who you're refering to?
Obviously for those who read both you and her blog, they will know. Too obvious lah.
On the same day itself, you wrote that. Well, yeah. I know the secret, but, do you think you really know? HAHA, you dont even know what people's talking about lah. So, dont simply call people " bitch ", and i was wondering, do you know what " bitch " really means? I guess NOT. Check, and totally understand the word, before you write it out. It's really a shame when you simply write that word. And, stop acting like you're a real good person. Actually when you did it, you really looked like a fool. Well, someone will agree about that. MISS Z, stop annoying people's life, that's what you can do, the best if you can do that.

My friend, agree? HAha.

ohhh.

2010-01-08T19:18:00.004+08:00

It's the first week of school, being Form 5 is kinda different from last year. Well, a few teachers changed, even our form teacher changed. Mr. Sin, changed to Mr. Hardeev. It's not a bad thing actually, but sorry to Mr.Sin. He's been a great form teacher last year, guiding us for the biology test and things. (: okay, english teacher, changed from Mdm. Ho to Miss Sherry ( is it the wrong spelling? ), Mr. Sin changed to Datin Savanes ( not sure the spelling ), Moral Mr. Lim to Pn. Tan, Miss Toh to En. Hardeev, and also our sivik teacher changed. Others remain unchanged. Form 5 is a challenging year, i guess. Teachers were always kept saying not to play and be serious this year. Well, i think we will be.

ANOTHER thing is, today's my eldest sister's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUNJIE ! She's in Sarawak now, so cant celebrate with her.. nevermind, we'll see her soon during chinese new year. It's kind of weird you're not sleeping beside. :D Vanessa's sleeping beside me now. (:

and, my second sister, her birthday's on tuesday, i didnt get to post it in my blog because she was using the laptop the whole day now. While waiting for her spm result. She was so obsessed to SHINEE, i guess if i buy their album she will be VERY happy. haha :D but i'm not going anywhere these few days, so wait lah. and i should also buy DBSK album to munjie, since she's also in love with them, so do I. muahahah :D if i buy it, then we can share... :D:D:D:D

AND, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY NEW BORN COUSIN, KAYDEN. The son of Jordan and May, his birthday is same with munjie. woohoo ~ :D , i hope to see the baby boy (: !

2009-12-29T12:04:00.008+08:00

DBSK ~ ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH - 在中篇

我们的英雄 – 在中。

曾何几时　他找到了自己的梦想
喜欢做的事
就算活得有多痛苦挣扎
他毅然走向　
他选择的去向

他被誉为
-- 英雄
英勇地
在舞台上展现出自己的才华
努力地
当一个霸占歌艺界的英雄

当年　
还是那么清涩
腼腆的少年
全力以赴　
朝向那伟大的梦想
娇嫩的声音
在空气中旋绕着
“ 我是东方神气的　英雄金在中
在此为大家呈献这首曲子… … ”

然而
漂亮的天使　总遇到连绵不断的波折
那颗看似坚强　实际未熟的心灵
备受考验
我们的英雄　当时才仅仅二十岁

脚伤　做了手术
隐忍着痛楚　为大家卖力演出
很痛
却强颜欢笑　地说
“ 我不疼。
看见大家的支持，就不觉得疼了。 ”
善良的孩子
笑着却像在哭泣的孩子

亲子事件
被揭晓了真正身份的时候
只有二十岁的英雄
就算被伤透了心
也只淡淡地说
“有两个爸爸妈妈也很好
可以得到双倍的爱。”
… …虽然父母都是在他成名后
才　凑巧地　承认了这个亲儿子

这么艰难的路
清纯的天使
将如何正常的呼吸
面对那模糊　残酷的未来？
隐忍的痛
在眼眶流连忘返的泪水
“ 我，　
可以走得更远吗？ ”

片体鳞伤的英雄
很幸运
因为他被四个善良的孩子围绕着
一同背负起种种的重任
一起哭
一起笑
一起尽情地唱歌　跳舞…
“　就像梦一样，真希望我们可以
　　　　永远在一起。 ”

不管是
那个　有时把他当笨瓜看待
开他玩笑与他打架
有时却无奈地屈服于他美味料理之下
在他委屈的时候比其他哥哥们更细心照顾他
的天才小么　最强昌珉
俩总是在大吵大闹地上演着
温馨的兄弟情

还是　那个
不管是思想还是外貌
都看似单纯可爱
可以当个被欺负　玩弄的对象
把他逗得见牙不见眼
亦能歌善舞的　西亚俊秀
队内最擅长乐音的二人
绝世的合音　
绝对完美的母女挡

又或者是那个
与他家世最相近
忧郁的王子样
比其他成员更快开窍　懂他心情
常为了掩护他的丑事而大胆抽风
陪他疯疯癫癫
傻笑的秘奇有天
那个　爱跟他一起编曲子
看日落的知心友

还是
那个　总是深情地打探他行踪
让出自己广大的肩　担当他的痛
温柔地献出温暖的　安慰的拥抱
来给他大量的勇气
也总会在他最失落的时候　伸出那双手
默默守护他的
队长　瑜卤允浩
那个曾说　在中是他老婆　
队中的爸爸

这四个无比美丽的孩子
是上天赐予英雄最珍贵的宝物

有了他们
英雄的笑容　可是灿烂多了

五人
携手步上梦幻舞台　

之中的　友情

亲情

与爱情… …

又有谁可以低估　它们的深度？

现在
是非常时期 … …面临解散。
也许他们的决定会导致
将来各走各路

也许再也无法像这样
同台演出
无法
像以前那样高兴地玩闹
及手牵手

但是他的心
与其他五人是融合为一的

MNET 2009 MAMA AWARDS：
“希望通过这里向正在关注颁奖盛会的所有海外及韩国的歌迷们，以及也许正在看着这个颁奖典礼的其他2名成员允浩和昌珉说一句，我爱你们。”
Always keep the faith… …
他铭记于心中的誓约
永远不变的事实

在中啊，
你爱着他们… …
其实相等的
他们也爱着你。

所以别哭。

不管
他们会走出怎么样的将来
他们还是那颗
五人合为一体闪烁的星
神话中的 “东方神起”。

CREDITS BY Kagusa 香草

Slow down.

2009-12-11T18:21:00.003+08:00

There's something really funny. Those beggars, usually they'll only beg in those restaurants right? but, this two. haih, they beg around the traffic light, when the it's red light, they started to beg people, who is in the car. well, isnt it too over?

spot the man there? standing beside the road, it was raining actually, that guy, he used his one hand to hold the umbrella, and one hand to beg.

see?

i dont know whether they're really a cripple or what. i still remember a few years ago, when my family and i were having our breakfast in one of the restaurant, a beggar came and beg. But, we didnt give them anything. After that, when we've finished our breakfast, we left that place, Then, we saw the same beggar, who beg-ged from us just now. When he's begging us, his leg was crippled, but when we saw him walking down the street, woah, he's walking as fast as a normal person.

What i really wanted to say is, if you're not disable, you still have hands right? you can make your own living, rather than begging from others. Our money, we also work hard to earn it. Well, if you're really disable, i guess i will donate some useful things to you. But if you aren't, why should i? You can still work, like helping people to wash dishes or just anything, anything that can earn money. So that you can affort your own living. There are a lot more beggars now, you can see them everywhere. Why dont you all just go to work, at least it's far better than taking people's money for granted.

Focus, focus.

2009-12-05T16:34:00.002+08:00

I saw my own picture in my cousin sis's new blog. Shocking, and somemore she said i like to read books. Actually i'm not, hahaha. Is just that day i brought a book to her house, and read.. you kind of misunderstood me. HAHA.

idiot.

2009-12-02T12:52:00.002+08:00

I met a really brainless guy today. Well, it happened right after we had breakfast. My sisters and I went to the car ourselves when my father went to a shop to collect something. So, my elder sister started the car engine, and we stayed in the car. Then, a BLUE PROTON SAGA, horn-ed my sister, and gave a signal to ask her to leave. So, my sister gave back a signal and tell him we're not leaving. If you're normal person, you will just leave, or just scold that person at the back. BUT, that brainless guy, he stared at my sister and parked right infront of us, and very near to our car ,which that place is also not a parking. And then, he came out from his car, and uses a really dumb face looked at my sister, and dont know what he's mumbling. SO, my sister told him we're waiting for my father. That brainless guy, kept on staring at us while he walked to the restaurant we had our breakfast just now. Then, he kept on pointing at our car and tell his friends dont know what what what. So, when my father came back, my sister walked out the car and told my father what happened. Then, that RED FAT guy, aka the brainless guy, slowly walked back to his car, still staring at us. So, my father and him argued.

Father Brainless GUY

Why did you parked so near to our car? My daughter's waiting for me.
She should come and tell me she's waiting for you.
You're the one who should asked her. So you bullied them because they're girls?
If boys I also bullied.
You're really rude.
Yea yea.
Just get the hell out of here.
Go to hell.

What the HELL? Are you insane or something? YOU are the one who's wrong, you know??? If someone went inside the car and started the engine, doesnt mean they will leave. Why are you so brainless? Cant you say something that has been gone through your brain? YOU , are the one who should asked us whether we're leaving or not, not us to tell you we're waiting. Did you drink alcohol or anything before you drive? Somemore you say Boys you will also bully. You're really saying something that is reallly funny. If you went to court, You sure will get into jail. And , you're so " FIERCE " when you're looking at us, actually you have a really dumb look when you look at us, then when my father came, you're like so sacred, but still spoke like you're the one who is right. Oh PLEASE, Think before you speak. It's really ashame when you spoke something stupid, and please admit you're wrong because the truth, IT IS. If you really appear again infront of me, see how i will do, to make you speechless. This kind of person, contaminate our CHINESE blood, see how rude you are.

I still remember you face, wearing speactacles, and red shirt. You're really VERY ROUND, do you know? and Your dear little car, BLUE PROTON SAGA, i hope it's yours. and the number plate is, WDL 8090. PLEASE BE EXTRA AWARE WHEN YOU SEE THIS CAR, HE'S REALLY INSANE.

We're the one who's parking there, we have the right to not leave, why should i leave by the way? just because you're FAT? or because you're " FIERCE "? Dont think we're girls so you can simply bully us, didnt you heard this before? You can provoke anyone, but DEFINITELY, not woman. I hope you wont met guys that will punch you to death. But i hope someone will punish you, so you wont act like these aymore.

something new.

2009-12-01T12:32:00.003+08:00

Jayden ! :D

so cute ! my cousin sister's son. only few weeks old. they said he looks like his father, but i cant see anything. he still doesnt know how to smile, but still cute :D . the face's sooo fat and soft, ahh. :D

oh, no!

2009-11-23T17:38:00.003+08:00

yoon eun hye, kim ta-hae, kim ok-bin, kim so-yeon, song hye-gyo, lee da hae, jeon ji hyun, han ha-in.

kim jae joong, lee min ho, jo in-sung, lee dong wook, daniel hanney, jung yunho, hyun bin, lee jun ki.

my sister made it :D .

you are the one, my love.

2009-11-19T14:03:00.002+08:00

ahh ! hero kim jaejoong is sooooo handsome ! and so talented.

you'remylove. (:

Endless Story.

2009-11-10T23:12:00.001+08:00

If you haven't changed your mind ,
I want you to stay with me tonight ,
I'm tired of pretending to be strong ,
I was too young ,
Every time I think about you baby ,
Now I can say it, I miss you ,
It's so hard to say I'm sorry.

I want to keep singing this song ,
For you, not for anyone else ,
It's an endless story, always shining ,
Always, I want to tell you, forever ,

Memories of our time together ,
Don't erase them, don't go away,
Just let them melt warmly, I want to make sure ,
These drops of tenderness spread out in my heart ,
I'm missin' you so much it hurts ,
Our hands overlap, don't let go .

If just one wish could be granted ,
I want to keep singing this song once more ,
It's an endless story, filled with unceasing love ,
Tell me why, tell me, forever .

I want to keep singing this song ,
For you, not for anyone else ,
It's an endless story, always shining ,
Always, I want to tell you, forever.

i could fall in love with you.

2009-11-04T18:10:00.002+08:00

what should i do, to make you sees me?

ahh, your name's keep spinning in my head. all i was thinking was you. but i know it's hopeless. there's nothing more i could do. there's something mysterious in my heart when i saw you. i felt something, but i dont know what is it. i couldnt calm myself when i saw you. haa, funny. i never behave like that before, but after i knew you. i became a different person. not much difference, but still i've change.

but i know i dont like you, or love you. it's just a feeling. a good feeling, a nice feeling whenever i saw you. it was great, although you dont know it. but, it's better like that.

you're my angel.

wedding. (:

2009-11-03T16:14:00.005+08:00

1st of November

today's my cousin brother, Victor Ng and Nicole 's wedding. They've been together more than 4 years, i think. They were a nice couple afterall, finally they get together. Their speech in the beginning of the dinner was so touching. They said about how they treat each other, and how lucky they were to have each other. Well, after they finished the wonderful speech, the dinner starts. There are also performances, dancing performances. One of them is the bride's cousin. They won a competition before, so they were really great. There were also some photos of my cousin and his wife, how they get to meet each other. (:

Well, I wish they would be together forever.

Uncle, Nicole, Victor, Aunty, Danny.

Family Photo.

Love.

a memory that last forever.

2009-10-31T14:42:00.008+08:00

my father drove us ( including my grandma ) to Genting yesterday around, 3 pm. reached there at 4 ++pm. my grandma has a free room, due to her card's point. and she booked another room too. we immediately check-in when we get there. and, when we stepped into our room, we was like.. woah. it was nice, although there isn't any nice view outside. but the toilet's amazing. it has a bathtub. the bed was big enough for two person to sleep. so, my mommy and father sleep in one room, my sis and i and my grandma sleep in one room. they even have astro. cool. my grandma has free ticket for dinner, and also free ticket for a magic show. but it wasn't time yet, so my sis and i went to the archade and played. we get 950++ tickets, for the games. and after that, we went to the free dinner in a place called " Be A Star". after that, we went back to the hotel and take our bath. then we went to the magic show. Called " Dazzling ". it was so cool. too bad they dont allow us to take pictures while the show is on. :/ we went back to the hotel after watching the show.

we went to have breakfast this morning in a dont know called what restaurant. well, the food there wasn't great, and it's expensive... we went back to the archade and continued to play, and finally, hahahaha. we earn 2800++ points !! so we change prizes for the points. and we got two bears, two panda, and one camel( i guess it was ), and also some books and one nice paper bag. :] my sis and i gave one bear to my grandma, it was a white bear with blue shirt, it's cute. and it's fur is very nice to touch, it was so smooth. and we gave my mommy a panda with blue ribbon, and my father a panda with red ribbon. which means my mommy will have father with her, and my father will have mommy with him. then finally we check-out and went back home.

this is actually a window.

my sis said that the statue behind my mommy is julius caesar.

father ....

mother....

finally together !

my pinky.

see it's tail curls upward.

afraid to remember again.

2009-10-16T23:03:00.002+08:00

my sis will be so happy when she sees thissss. (: this guy is so hot. and tall. and good looking of course. a few years back he went to the army thingy, in korea. and he was missing in action for a few years. but i think he's back right now. :D

HIS NAME IS JO IN-SUNG !

sweethearts.

2009-10-16T19:42:00.004+08:00

sis, i'm more addicted to these few guys. although mark is good at acting :D but he's married.. and got children too.. so sad :X (just kidding)

my LUM FONG ! ( he's so handsome when he smiles.. actually he's handsome at all times XD)

BLUE ~

DONG WOOK <3

Imagination.

2009-10-10T22:57:00.005+08:00

She got a sense that their time together was valuable, as though she needed to hold on to every minute as if it was their last. He was too good to be true, every moment spent with him magical, so much so that she presumedthis couldn't last for ever. None of her good feelings had lasted; none of the people who lightened her life managed to stay. Going by her previous luck, from pure fear of not wanting to lose something so special, she was just waiting for the day he would leave. Whoever he was, he was healing her, he was teaching her to smile, teaching her to laughand she wondered what she could teach him. With him, she feared that the sweet man with the soft eyes would reach a day when he would realise she had nothing to offer. That she had simply drained him of his resources and had none to give.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

She cast her mind back to that night and to the dream she had, the dream she had been thinking about all week, the dream that had been bothering her and suddenly realised a sinking feeling in her heart that it hadn't been a dream at all.
She had lost him. In her dreams and in real life, she had lost him.

----- if you could see me now------

a whole new one. (:

2009-10-07T20:16:00.004+08:00

still remember the last year of today, i was still suffering from something. i always hope you would turn your back, and say "i'm sorry". but you didnt. it makes my heart-broken. i forgot how much tears i shed in my heart. but i do remember the feeling, how hurt is it. the wound just cant healed. my life was so imperfect, was so depressed. i would think of you every single day, every single minute, every single second. i was lost, in everyway. i cant concentrate on anything, i felt so pain. not the pain in the outside, but the pain inside. very deep inside, inside my lonely heart. i was so fustrated.

but what are you doing there? you were smiling, laughing so brightly like nothing had happened. everytime you smiled, my heart broke again. but you seem to be not noticing. i really hoped you would have a happy life, but i just cant stand it. i couldnt accept you for loving another person. the time when i knew you have another one, my soul faded away. the smile on my face dissapeared, only sadness left. i was standing so far away, seeing you watching her. you smile so sweetly, to her. i swallowed back my tears, because i knew it doesnt worth it.

somehow, someone told me you actually thinking of somebody else when you're being with me. i laughed. why am i being so silly? you're not my guy. i always says to myself, "you're nothing. just a person who left me behind." but i know i was lying to myself.

but now, you're out of my mind. out of my life. i was so curious, since when i've forgotten you? everything of me, is none of your part anymore. you're far away from me now, and, i felt so happy. my friends do too. i'm relief.

and you made me knew something, i can still live happily without your presence, i can still laugh and smile. like nothing happened. and i've learnt something, love is just a part of our life. why should we suffered? we just need to breath in new air, for new life.

sunrise. a new life.

thousand words.

2009-10-06T17:24:00.003+08:00

AH ! Raymond is coming on December ! I LOVE HIM !

hope i can go to his concert :D woooahhh >.<

2009-08-25T12:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLETINK!
hope you'll have a sweetsixteen.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GANMEELING!
my little bestfriend (:

would you turn around?

2009-08-21T18:55:00.002+08:00

PIANO !
i'm going to have the piano exam next friday, ohmy.. one week left, and i havent fully prepared. my piano teacher let me see the examiner's comment, comment on her other students lah, omg. so strict, the tempo a little bit out then minus marks, dynamics not enough minus somemore, arh. hope this week i can rush until nice nice lah. :D haha, dreaming only. :/

once it's broken, it's broken.

2009-08-11T20:58:00.007+08:00

VanessaTan and me. (:

papa and me ! :]

the international airport in Sarawak.

we called it "vampire house". it was so big, huge and large. and the most importantly, it was in the middle of the forest.

waiting for the van. :/

JasminTan , she wanted to be delivered same as other boxes..

:]

this mountain looks so funny.. haha.. :D

Vikki's Uni.

new car. :/

our transport. Hyundai Starex ! so nice.

this is the hilton hotel. looks like two-dimension right?

waterfront. :]

Cats !

more Cats!

our resort.

i wish you could listen to me.

2009-08-08T19:10:00.006+08:00

I'M AT SARAWAK NOW ! :D
okay, i went to the aiport around 10 something this morning. reached Sarawak at 1 something, and my SISTER was here. :D she was waiting our arrival. and also the driver, name as Brandon i guess... he drove us to the hotel, and checked-in first. then, after we put our luggages, we went to THE SPRING to have lunch. after that lunch, we went back to the hotel. my cousin and i went for a swim, but the water was so salty, ohno. (: i'm now in the nice and awesome room with my little cousin, JASMIN TAN and my second sister, VANESSA TAN (: later we're going off to dinner, with my eldest sister, VIKKI TAN and her friends. :] we're waiting for my gujie to come and pick us up. :DDDDDDDDDDDDD tomorrow i think we're going to the waterfront.. have no idea what is it and where is it... (:

everytime i saw you, my heart melts. (:

2009-08-06T19:11:00.002+08:00

The fate of love is that it always seems too little or too much.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes…just be an illusion.

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

Don’t hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love.

i missed it.

2009-07-06T15:58:00.002+08:00

just wanna post a short paragraph that gave from my new english teacher.

The Creightons were very proud of their son, Frank. When he went to college, naturally they missed him; but he wrote and they looked forward to his letters and saw him on weekends. Then Frank drafted into the army.

After he had been in the army about five months, he received his call to go to Vietnam. Of course the parents' anxiety for his first letter was greater than ever before. And every week they heard from him and were thankful for his well-being.

Then one week went by without a letter, two weeks and finally three. At the end of the third week a telegram came, saying, " We regret to inform you that your son has been missing for three weeks and is persumed to have been killed in action while fighting for his country."
The parents were shocked and grieved. They tried to accept the situation and go on living, but it was tragically lonesome without Frank.

About four weeks later, however, the phone rang. When Mrs.Creighton answered it, a voice on the other end said," Mother, it's Frank. They found me, and I'm going to be all right. I'm in United States and I'm coming home soon." Mrs.Creighton was elated, with tears running down her cheeks she sobbed, "Oh, that's wonderful! That's just wonderful, Frank."
There was silence for a moment, and then Frank said, " Mother I want to ask you something that is imperative to me. While I've been here, I've met a lot of wonderful people and I've become close friends with some. There is one fellow I would like to bring home with me to meet you and Dad. And I would like to know if it would be alright if he could stay and live with us, because he has no place to go.

His mother assured him it would be all right.

Then Frank said, " You see, he wasn't as fortunate as some, he was injured in battle. He was hit by a blast and his face is disfigured. He lost his leg, and his right hand is missing. So you see, he feels apprehensive about how others will accept him."
Frank's mother stopped to think a minute. She began to wonder how things would work out with a cripple in their home, and she worried about how the people in town would react to someone like that. She said, " Sure Frank, you bring him home, for a visit, that is. We would love to meet him and have him stay for a while; but about him staying with us permanently, well we'll have to think about that." There was a silence for a minute, and then Frank said, " Okay, Mother," and hung up.

A week went by without any word from Frank, and then a telegram arrived, "We regret to inform you that your son has taken his own life. We would like you to come and identify the body." Their wonderful son was gone. The devastated parents could only ask themselves, " Why had he done this?"
When they walked into the room to identify the body of their son, they found a young man with a disfigured face, one leg missing, and his right hand is gone.

touching, isn't it?

sing with me the whole night.

2009-06-29T18:20:00.011+08:00

went to sunway college again :D today's with my eldest sister. after my tuition at 11.30am, my sis sent me home and waited till 12.30pm. my sis went to her friend's house to fetch them and go sunway together. we reached sunway around 1 something. but we didnt get the chance to see my second sis to sing in the competition. :/ but nevermind, the worst thing is, i forgot to bring the ticket that i bought yesterday. somemore need to buy a new one. argh ! geramnya. okay, actually yesterday has more people , i also dont know why. hmm.. we go round and round and round to take picture with those cosplayers. after a while, my eldest sis's friend aka my primary school's teacher came. so, we walked around together. and took a lot of pictures. we also went to the what goldfish place. and, now only i know that i'm a expert to catch the gold fishes. nyaha. i use one tissue paper net to catch 2 gold fish, so geng man. hahaha :D after that, we leave the college around 3 something, and then went to sunway pyramid to have a lunch. we went to J.CO to eat donuts. and some of them were telling us jokes. so funny man those jokes, haha XD after that, we go hang around and walk walk walk, then my father finally called us to go home. :/ so, we leave around 5 something.

oh ya, and this is the new bedsheet we bought. :D

kiss love ! (:

What color is the sky right now where you are?

2009-06-27T20:50:00.004+08:00

haha, at first, just wanna say, FINALLY the exam finished. :D and today, i went to the sunway's cosplay animangaki. my sister, planned to cosplay a person in ff7, aerith, but unfortunately, the person who helps her to make the dress havent finished it yet. so, she cant cosplay. :/ how sad..

we planned to reached there around 11 something, but at last, ended on 12 something.. because my father, he told the wrong information to us. he say turned to the left in the second turning after passing by sunway pyramid. but actually, we should turn into the junction before passing by sunway pyramid. argh, but at last, we also reached there. maggiesudo's waiting for me at the uni when i reached. then my sister's friend led us to the place. it's actually not that big, but bigger than the last cosplay event we went for. hah, my sis and i wanted to compete the singing but ended up giving up. but, she still join the solo competition.

and she get into the finalist. :D only 7 person gets the chance to go to the final (: yay ! and tomorrow, i'll still be going there with my elder sister. to see my second sis to compete :D

GAMBATEH ! VANESSA TAN :D

AND, we bought this for someone :D hope she'll like it.

smile, honey.

2009-05-29T18:09:00.002+08:00

MAGGIENG !

HAPPY SWEET 16 !

maggiesudo and i have a big suprise for you ! so wait patiently wor ! :D

you're the star.

2009-05-16T20:20:00.005+08:00

today there's a cosplay event in Help university college. mags and i planned to go there, and we reached there around 12 something. had "breakfast" at Mcdonald. after that, we went into the uni college. they're introducing those cosplayers when we walked in. and they're also selling those anime's keychain and posters. but we didnt buy it :D we walked into "dont know what place" to have a rest. and we took some pictures (:

carry me on.

2009-05-12T20:44:00.006+08:00

8th May

today's sukan day. i'm taking part in the marching, so i went to school around 6am. maggie waited me at the guard house there. and sorry i'm late :X after that, we went to the sport center to get dressed up. the costume is so cute :D haha. the photo's in mag's blog. after wearing the costume, we went to get ready for the marching in front of the padang. we practiced a few times before the sukan starts.

okay, after everything's finished, including the marching, we went back to the perkhemahan there, and i quickly wear the merah shirt for 100m. i managed to rushed to there before it starts, and just right after i crossed the finishing line, i started to have a feeling of nose bleeding, and my nose really started to bleed. ahh, and i ran to find my sister to get tissues. after that, i went to find mags, and meeling too. we sat at the sport center to rest, and the nose was still keep on bleeding, argh. after for half an hour, finally it stopped. :D and then, we went to the perkhemahan there. and, the judges announced that merah team won the marching. we got the first place (: but not for long, some teachers said that our perkhemahan blah blah blah, and must minus our marks. and i dont wanna say anything about it anymore. *gek hei. mag's blog got more detail things.

10th May

went to RAKUZEN again on sunday to celebrate mother's day. :D my elder sister came back already, so she can join us for the lunch (: took some pictures there :D

after having the lunch, we went to pavilion. and they are having a modelling show, i think those model were modelling the dresses and make-up (:

kiss me goodnight.

2009-04-30T22:10:00.004+08:00

ooh, today maggies and i went to the HELP college university for PRS training. and we missed pn.kok's retirement .. but i heard from my sister that it was not that fun also, so nevermind (: so, we reached there around 8 something, and we waited at the dont know what place for other schools' to come. and then, we took another bus to another campus for the training thingy. at first, we had our breakfast there, sandwhiches. (: and then, we listened to a talk from ms. annie khaw about some creative writing. she taught us of someway to expand our points before writing a short stories or poems.. and, we wrote a short stories which is quite interesting. (maybe) after that, we had a tea break. and then, continued with a talk by mr.murali about leadership and team building. he let us watched a short clip which is those penguins in the Madagascar movie. those penguins were trying to win back because they lost for... many times, and at last, they WON ! yay. the clip taught us quite a lot of things actually, (: and maggies, were talking and talking and talking.. hahahaha. after that, we had a lunch break, my godness, we ate for three times in the morning.. akward. :/ and then, we went back to school. we reached school around 3.

this is the short story wrote by: MaggieSudo, MaggiNg, ValerieTan, RuiYe.

A BETRAYER

I walk along the street, the sun shines on me. There is a person that was covered by darkness, chasing behind me. Whatever I did, it seems to be followed by the unknown person. It was my shadow. I try to run away, but I fail. The shadow was so annoying, chasing me! I wanted to be alone, in a beautiful meadow. With a blue sky and a shady tree. But everything was fake, it can only happen in my dreams. I was so disappointed with this. I felt nostalgic, when I recall the past, with the beloved one. He was a betrayer, he left me alone without reason. I trusted him so much, but what did i get at last? He dump me alone in the darkness.

nights , (:

i finally understand.

2009-04-22T19:44:00.003+08:00

i have the chance to compete in the 100m acara during sportsday. yeah! although i lost in the lompat jauh.. :/ but my sister get second place in lompat kijang and lompat jauh. :D but she's still not satisfy with her achievement.. :( i didnt even get any places in that acara.. she also got the chance to compete 100m and 4x100m during sportsday.

maggie and i stayed back today for the rumah merah marching. it was quite hot , but i think its okay lah. well, the commands make us a bit confusing sometimes.. haha, and the commander is so queit, :] make us keep on laughing.

we are going to the PRS camp on friday :D yay yay . :]

the only thing i can hear from my heart is to run.

2009-04-17T20:14:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my father's birthday (: . we bought a cheese-brownies cake from secret recipe. It was nice and delicious, :D although the cheese is too thick , but overall is nice :]

leave it aside.

2009-04-16T21:31:00.003+08:00

sweet sacrifice.

2009-04-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

It's true, we're all a little insane.
But it's so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.
Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.
One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.
Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
And oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.
(I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.)
Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.

you and only you.

2009-03-17T16:59:00.002+08:00

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

prisoner of love.

2009-01-31T17:36:00.002+08:00

my sister's going back to Sarawak today. so we all woke up around 9am and get readied at 10am. have our breakfast at a restoran near our house, at started our journey around 10.45am. my father used the highway which will get us faster to the airport. and we all chit chated all the way. my sister saw a bunch of cows on the field, she said got a lot of them, walking slowly and maybe eating grass too. i didnt get the chance to see cause my father drove to fast and i'm not wearing my glasses that time. :/ alright, we reached the airport around 11 something. arent late for the flight, the flight was around 1pm. my father dropped my sisters and mom to go check in first, while he and i went to look for parking. we were forced to park at those erm.. not parking but since everyone's parking there, so we followed them. it was fulled of mud, and the car went dirty after crossing them.

after parking, we went in to find my sister they all, well, she was checking in those lugage with her friend, which she reached there very early. 10 she said. and her another friend reached here after my sister finished checking in and get the tickets. and my father called them to wait inside cause we'll leaving soon. before we leave, i asked my father to let me buy ice cream first. hah. when i was lining up with my mom, suddenly someone's waving with me. oh, it's my ex-classmate. he transfer school already last year, and i'm shocked to see him there. his brother's going to australia, maybe for study, not quite sure, and he's here to say goodbye. (: after that, i bought my ice cream and leave the airport.

my sister's coming back on may, maybe (: her holiday starts on 9th of may, and we all are going to fly over to Sarawak to help her pack her things. hope time fly faster so that i can see her soon. i'm going to miss her :]

enthusiastic.

2009-01-29T19:14:00.001+08:00

monday,

ooh, first day of chinese new year. after taking all the family photos in the house, then we pack all the stuff to my uncle's house, which every event will be held there. after parking the car, we went in the house and greet everyone. and then, have our breakfast. adult one table, children one table. everything's delicious and is made by my grandma. hah, always tasty. after all those delicious food, they started to give angpous. aunties and uncles, hah. and so do my cousin, the newly wed cousin. his 'wife' gave us double. 2 angpous :D its a tradition.

and then, all of them started to play cards. at first they play blackjack, and they called me to play but i'm watching a movie which i forgot what is it. after a while, they change to a new game call " in between". its more interesting than the one before. the rules are like that: those who wanna play, must put money out first. eg, everyone put 1 buck on the table. and then everyone will get two cards,if you get 2 cards which is not very good to play, then you can either dont play or continue, after that you will have to say how much you wanna bet, but the amount must be in between the money that gathered just now. the third card you take must in between the first two cards. er, like if the first 2 cards is 5 and J, the you must get 6,7,8,9,10. then you will get the amount you said before from the gathered money. if you get those which is not in between like 1,2,3,4,Q,K, then you will have to pay back the amount you've said. and if you get the card which is same number with the first two cards, you will have to pay double. after playing, you will have to wait again until it's your turn. quite confusing right? hah, but this game will have to play for long time because needa wait until the money is all finished giving those who won. and is quite scary because the money will be a lot if someone keep losing.

after we finally finished the game, we all rested for a while and went to my grandma's cousin's house to have our dinner at night. we stayed there for a while only, after having our dinner, then we go back to my cousin's house, to chit chat and play (: . we went home around 12 something.

tuesday,

went to my uncle's house for breakfast again. and then, went to my mom's father's house around 1 something. there will be " lion dance " at 2. and we watched the lion dance, and it's cool (: after that, my another uncle's house also will have another lion dance. this one is much more nicer because they looks more profesional :/ after that, we stayed at his house for a long time. and it's boring. i fall asleep on his sofa. toooo boring. my sister watched the death note 3, with other people. and then, went for dinner. and my mom and uncle supposed to drive my grandpa for dinner, but then at last he didnt want to come. argh, some things happens. my mom was very angry, can feel her anger although i'm not sitting beside her. but then, we also quietly have our dinner. then, went back to uncle's house. adults aside chit chating, while me and sisters are totally bored. sitting there and keep turning channels. finally, they drive us back around 11 something. :]

and, my cousin lend me her twilight and new moon book. (: i managed to finished the twilight book in, er.. 4 days ! :D she would be happy if she saw this. although the twilight movie is kinda different from the book, but both are nice. and i started the new moon book, too. is nice (: althought half of it is about jacob and bella. but its still alright for me. yeah !

cold to death.

2009-01-25T13:18:00.002+08:00

my cousins came here from Singapore this morning. early in the morning, VERY early. i havent even wake up yet, they departed at 3 something in the morning from Singapore. okay, when they reached here, my mom quickly waked us up and went for shower and things. ooh, and then we went to oug for breakfast, :D after that, father went to work after breakfast. my sister, drove us home. my cousins brought her speaker here, and listened to songs, my sister's performance's song, and we watched the video of her performance. and, the cousin taking pictures of my sis playing the piano. haha :D alright, and she was doing her homework now..

will post later. (:

too hard to change.

2009-01-23T21:24:00.003+08:00

ooh, one week holiday start from now ! haha, my eldest sister came back today. i mean just now. i watched the video which she's dancing with her friends, the so so nice (: and the moves also very nice. she say wanna teach me, haha :D and she brought back the movie "one liter of tears" from her friend, good good.

and yeah, yeeling's not going to transfer school anymore. yay ! she says that the school she wanna transfer to is full already, so she needa stay at catholic. (: few days ago damn funny, she say wanna transfer but suddenly appear, hah. but then, it's good she didnt transfer, cause we can be with her mar. hope that she'll think like that lah.

errr, yesterday mag brought her handphone to school, and we have our rumah practice. yeeling stayed back too. after all the running and things, we went to the playground and play a fool over there. and took pictures. but mag havent upload yet, still waiting for her...

alright, till here.

let go.

2009-01-10T15:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTERS !

vanessa's birthday's on 5th of january. :D the first day of school. hahaha (: havent buy any presents yet. so sorry. :/ but pa and ma also got celebrate with her, a rasberry or strawberry cheeeeeeseeeee cake. i forgot. oops. :X

vikki's birthday's on 8th of january. (: she's at sarawak now, so cant celebrate with her. just can say happy birthday. :( i also havent buy her present. owe first lah. (: hope you'll see my blog :D

i've dreamed of this a thousand times before.

2009-01-03T18:08:00.003+08:00

my sister finally made the blogskin for me. i've beg her to helped since dont know when, but finally she made it also. thanks (: she made it yesterday night. haha.

okay, school's gonna reopen soon, holiday just passed so fast. havent even enjoy enough. :/ prepare everything to school already, :] and the pmr result came out at tuesday, i'm okay with my result. not too bad and not too good. wish i'll be in the class that i wanted. :D

2009 has arrived, a new year came. time passes so fast, i didnt even have the chance to stop. new year, new mood. (: hope everyone will have a new happy year. :D

i followed the voice you gave to me.

2008-11-09T18:15:00.003+08:00

8th November

went to help my cousin work today. adrian came to drive me and my sis around 2 something, and went to cheras to drive joanne( my cousin his gf ). haha, that time my tuition teacher was at there teaching jasmin, my cousin sis. after that, sharon( my cosuin bro's gf ) followed us to go to work. hmm, reached there around 4 something. it was quite easy to do, just pack and pack and pack.

after that, have my lunch with sis and sharon at the old town white coffee shop near the place we worked. after that, continue to work. until 8 something, my aunts and grandma came and also brought foods and drinks. went back home around 11 something and was fetched by my cousin bro. his car got a lot of squishies. :D black and red (:

p/s :so sorry can't go to your party yesterday, yiwei (:

9th November

went for tuition today, it's actually the second day because last week i didnt attend the class. (: i was late, hmm. when i reached there they already started the lesson. :/ the teacher teached till very good lah, hehe. after that, my mom fetched me to chen moh. around 12 something. okay, my sis meet up with her friends and i meet up with yiwei,ling and hweihng. i think they hang around there quite long, :] then, we went to the haunted mansion, and there was a lot of person lining up and it was sooooo hot. so we decided not to go in anymore.

wasted my coupon. :X nevermind, after that walking around and saw a lot of friends, hmm. and i caught a gold fish. it's a game actually, used up 2 bucks to have a gold fish and at last gift to meeling's sis. haha. then, walking around and round.. doing nothing.. meeling went home at 2pm and after that yiwei went back at 2 something. my father and mom came at 3 something, and i havent even eat anything for like dont know how many hours.

after that, headed home (:

Love is a path to the heart that knows its own way.

2008-11-09T17:35:00.004+08:00

7th November

today's last day of school. so, we decided to go to school (: but, the school is soooo boring. we sit at the canteen for a whole day. nothing to do, :/ just a few students going on that day, :X thought everyone will come cause last day of school. haiz. but then, we took some pictures. haha. maggieng, dont cry darl, we can still see each other. not then we're going somewhere else and never meet each other anymore. nyahaha, but i know you very touched lah, all those laughs, tears, joys, we've been through it together (: sooo, here to say i'm very glad and happy can same class with you and knowing you :] as my bestfriend.

anyway, HAPPY HOLIDAY to ALL. :D hope you all can have a happy holiday.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to you.

2008-10-28T21:18:00.003+08:00

Whenever i stray off the path of love,
You guide me back into the tranquil light.
I find myself wanting to pull you close,
Close my lips over your own.
My body is responsive and i hate it,
I know you are the wrong one for me,
But i cant seem to stop myself anymore,
Even though you are wrong you love me right.
My heart beats frantically inside my chest,
I am digesting a mortal infliction that causes agony,
I cannot decipher what i must do,
All i know is that your love is so pure and true.
A gift so rare and yet I cannot cherish,
You belong to someone and its not me,
I rebel and try to lash out at others,
But its the truth,
I want you and no other.
My love for you is neverending,
But i have come to realize that it will never work,
Though we are in love with each other,
We are the wrong ones,
Even though we love right.

Love is but a burning fire, the distance between us only increases our desire.

2008-10-28T20:31:00.004+08:00

sis went to sunway with friends. while i went to midvalley with maggieng and lianseng. my father dropped me at the south court because mag said that her mom always dropped her there, but, today was different. her mom dropped her at the north court. so, she walked to the south court to find me. (: and then, meet up with lianseng. went up to the highest floor to watch movie. we chose the movie " Tropic Thunder ". haha, it's quite funny at some part.

the movie ended at 2 something, then we went to the bowling court to play. maggieng doesnt want to play, :/ after a while, they said they wanted to eat. but at last, apa pun tak ada makan. apalah, thought you all hungry, ceh. :X then just walk here walk there doing nothing. :/

my father called at 4pm and said that he will be coming, cause my sis finished already. and, we waited him at the south court, for quite long. :X then, maggieng followed me go home, and lianseng taking cab back home. so, went to fetch my sis. luckily there's no traffic jam. reached home at 5pm. online, chat. blah. maggie's mom came at 6.30pm. she went home straightly. now she's chatting with me and i'm here blogging. (:

Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll.

2008-10-28T19:00:00.002+08:00

26th October

Sunday again. woke up at 9.45am. rushed to fetch my sis that is having tuition at happy garden. :/ after that, went to have breakfast. mommy and father went to work and left us at home alone. sis have tuition at 11am. i'm sitting there doing nothing :X after she finished her tuition, we went to play PS 2. haha :D hmm, the game's name is "Blood Will Tell". a game about demons.. fun to play. hee (:

parents came back at 2pm and fetch us to my uncle's house to have a " meeting " about the wedding of my cousin bro. (: they chit-chated at downstairs and my cousin sis and i went upstairs to play Nintendo Wii. " Dancing Star " and " Sonic ". and i keep losing and losing, at last, dont want to play anymore. haha :/

and then, went downstairs and watch them chit-chat. so---- boring, -.- wanted to go to mag's house, but they dont allowed.. so, stay there till night. after the dinner and some talk, went home. wanted to buy ice-cream at Mcdonald, but unfortunately, the machines spoilt. :X haiz, so went home after that. :/

27th October

woke up at 10 something, haha. (: went out for breakfast, and after that parents took us to buy things. :/ boring, then went home a while just to put those things. and then, mommy wants to go to LaSenze to buy some wedding dress for my cousins' wedding. stay there till 4pm. finally, she decided to buy which one. haha :] we also bought some clothes, for my eldest sis. who is now in Sarawak. (:

after that, went to one utama to shop. wanted to buy shoes for the wedding, but then all too high, scare will fall when wearing it. so, did buy anything. ohyeah, we went to McDonald to buy ice-cream. :D we almost tried all the flavour, maggieng will shout when she saw this again. muaha.

and then, went back home. mommy said wanna go to my auntie's house to have a look at her dress. so, jog to her house. i ride my bicycle :D her house is just right behind my house. my cousin bros' washing their car when we reach there, and he straighten his hair, (: and talk for like half an hour, went home again.

:DDDDD cheer ! (:

from an angel's wings, to a falling star, God made everything, but a unbreakable heart.

2008-10-25T13:36:00.002+08:00

24th October

:/ went to school today again, without any reasons. boring till hell. reach school 7am, saw maggiesudo alone at block C. after a while maggieng came. maggiesudo and her bf going to beryl's. just left me and maggieng in the boring school. they left at 8.30am.

we sat in the canteen for dont know how long, reading the magazines maggiesudo lend to us. all about the dressing up and stuffs. and, we played the sticks. haha, maggieng, remember black one? muahaha. dont get too high when you saw this.

maggiesudo called us and said she's coming back at 10am. but we waited till 11 she also havent come back. finally, she came back at 12pm. then we went to play the sticks game. haha, damn stupid, i lost. :( after that, went home at 1 something. reached home 2. after bathing and eating, father called me to followed him to go to his shop cause mommy cannot go. she need to drive my sister go piano lesson. :/ stayed at his shop, help him to work. muaha, and something happens makes me laugh till insane. lazy to mention it.

finally, he sent me back home at 9pm, went home and bathed again. hah. sis took the whole ps 2 into the room and played there at night. :/ i'm accompaning her while playing the laptop. but actually she used it more than i do. she's checking on the walkthrough of the game. what chest and treasures, makes me confuse. nevermind, we ended at 1am i think. then went straight to sleep. hah.

pictures. (:

The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.

2008-10-24T22:50:00.006+08:00

23rd October

woke up as usual today. that means 6am. went to school cause today we have activities. the " we " included maggiesudo, maggieng, meeling, yeeling, hweihng, sohwoeijye. and of course me. :/ okay, we waited till 8 am. finally, the bus came. so, we get in to the bus. we sit pair to pair. (: we reached sunway college at 9 i think, dont remembered. so, the bus driver drop us at the entrance, then we walked in. it's quite clean and quite nice and quite big.. a lot of stairs.. we went up to the third floor, there was an air-cond room. we went in and those dont know how to call them, organizers tell us what should do and games.

we started the first game at the field, it's a quite complicated game, lazy to explain. it's about teamwork. hmm. :/ we finished in one hour, maybe. our shoes become black in colour, all the mud and dirt. omg. and then, have our breakfast, in the canteen. BREAD. argh, still so hungry after eating the sausage bun. hoohoo. then, went back to the room, shared our experience. then, started the second game.

given a mat, very small one. every team members must stand inside the mat without any parts of the body touch the outside. our group got 10 persons, we use one leg to stand. haha. but at last also lost. :/ meeling's group won. yeah (: after the game, they gifted us some sort of information for the stream we choice, our future. where should we study and blah. hmm, haha. and a piece of paper let us write down our information.. maggieng and i chose to be an celebrity, haha. so funny. then after that, we went for our lunch.

rice, :X it's okay lah, can eat then can lah. after that, went back school around 1 something. luckily my bus havent came yet, haha. after a while, only i went home (:

here's some pictures we took in sunway college (:

Missing you isn't the hard part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart.

2008-10-21T17:01:00.002+08:00

Shattered heart forced to heal,
as greatness unveils thine soul.
Hope whispered in the distance,
to recover thine lost love.
'Tis night brings tender passing,
healing thine soul with glorious blunder.
Caus' not one or two,
but dissipated nights of dreams.
Sadness comes to end,
happiness conquered hate.
Love sprouting -- sadness shrinking,hope has come again.

the stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again.

2008-10-19T12:35:00.003+08:00

last time. (:

now. (:

Like hummingbirds are drawn to nectar,
She could not fight the way she felt.
Love lingered and boiled inside her,
Unfair was the passion she'd been dealt.
Every waking moment was haunted,
With this unsatisfiable desire.
She loved him in all ways possible.
He was the fuel to her raging fire.
Any little way she could speak to him,
Was taken and used without a thought.
Never were those few moments enough.
In the end, only more pain was brought.
Each time reminded her he was perfect.
There was no comparison to this man.
But like a picture in a musuem,
From any taking, her heart was banned.
This want grew more painful each day.
The battle was becoming too much.
Tears that once could be soothed quickly,
Came rapidly at every touch.
Never would he know of her passion.
He could not see this young girl's love.
She watched him fall for another.
That was the final push and shove.
She did not kill herself that night.
Though, I wouldn't say she truly lived.
She ran away from any reminders,
Of this love where she could never give.

once upon a time i was falling in love, but now i'm only falling apart.

2008-10-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I ponder about,
what will come next,
Where will my life turn when it seems to stall?
When is the next time I will smile again?
and how will I get up, should I fall?
Happiness fills me with a touch of sadness.
By that I mean I know it can't last.
Beauty decays, laughter subsides,
When will the stones be cast?
Tragedy can be measured by the amount of happiness taken away,
Elusion is our only protection,
As we fall victim to its prey
So when I've reached a fork in life's road and the choices are many or few.
I follow the one that leads away from misfortune,
Thats all I can really do,
When life is good,
You have to hold it in your hand,
You have to close your eyes,
You have to breathe it in!
Happiness may end,
While tragedy begins,
Today is the beginning,
Is tomorrow the end?

As long as you always hold someone in your heart, you will never lose him.

2008-10-17T18:27:00.000+08:00

JOY :]

finally PMR's finished, ohyeah! just right after exam, maggieng's mom drive us to a temple, dont know what event. so, 11 something only reach mag's house. Her house is sooooo big :D haha.. and her dog keep barking at me, SNOOPY. :P then, take bath. went sunway after it. :D shopping, but actually didnt buy anything, went to gasoline to have lunch. ordered a lot of thing, haha. all also dont know what they called. then continue to shop. then maggieng's mom came at 4 something.. when we're on the way walking to her mom's car, mag's leg cramp, we stop at middle of the stair, :[ then she slowly walk, finally, way back to home. :/ nevermind, took some pictures. will upload soon (:

nothing lasts forever
(:

For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart.

2008-09-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

okay, maggie and i decided that she'll be coming to my house today for revision. she came at 1pm. i took her to my room, and we started to do revision. and also, played the computer for a while. and took pictures :] and she went home at 7pm. :D

my penguin. haahaa.

cloud <3

Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.

2008-09-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

26th September, Friday.

ihateHKC. dont want to say so details what happen actually, he is so damn irritating. omg. nevermind, maggie bought her phone to school and we took some pictures (:

i hope the time can stop, stop at the moment when i'm with you.

2008-09-14T14:11:00.000+08:00

LEFT 30 until PMR :D

so long didnt blog anything, simply blog something right now.. hah. (: okay, my exam is so so so.. POOR. cannot imagine, ohmygod. i really hope i'll work harder next time. hah. my father bought a new laptop :D yeah. so, using it right now. but, my sister doesnt allow me to download anything in it. hmm. so, it's empty now (: ah, so boring. wishing that pmr will over soon, then i can hangout with my friends :D and, school organizes a lot of activities for those form 3s' after the pmr (: hah. wooosh.

I would take the pain away.

2008-08-23T18:33:00.000+08:00

21st August

hee, went for piano exam. finally, i waited today for almost hmm, dont know how long. the exam is at impiana hotel, near pavilion there. every year i also have my exam at prince hotel, but dont know why this year change. :/ still, there is quite nice too. and my examiner is good. (: he talk to me before the exam starts. :] but i dont even know his name. :/ the exam ends around 4. headed back home after that.

23rd August

woke up at 4.30AM today. ahh~ haiz, i promise my cousin to go to a university college to help him. my sister went too. but my eldest sis's going back to sarawak today at 12.45pm. so i can't go to the airport with her. ): but i sms her (: okay, continue. my cousin( jason ) came my house around 5.15am. then, he drives us to fotorex first, settle down everything. teach us what to do when we get there. ate our breakfast, then we started our journey to NILAI UNIVERSITY COLLEGE. it's quite big there, but very far away from here. luckily didnt fall asleep. reach there around 7am. hmm, is quiet there because everyone still havent come yet. so, we arrange everything in time. (: their ceremony starts at 10. so, we went into the hall at 9.30. a lot of people there. parents and students and lectures. the presiden gave out his speech. then, student were lining up to the stage. there's 238 students. :/ and we copied their name till haiz. then, we went out at 11 something. went back to the counter. people start coming. i was sent to the studio there to help them get the resit. it's kinda fun because just sit there and collect collect. (: and tracy's niece, i think so, yijia, we became friends. hah. (: then everything over around 2.30pm. have lunch at the canteen there. jason belanja us. then, start to rain. :X so, we pack everything and jason drive us back at 3.00pm. reach home at 4.30pm. what a day.

i'm tired.

2008-08-19T19:26:00.000+08:00

i'm feel so tired already,
do whatever you wanna do,
say whatever you wanna say,
i just dont want to care anymore.
i dont feel like saying anything to you anymore.
so dont say anything to me too.
or write out to let people see,
make people dislike me more.
whatever lah.

the soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears.

2008-08-17T13:41:00.000+08:00

i write this post is to apologize to two person who is syw and mnbk.
i'm so sorry that i've told everything you told me to her,
i know i should not done that.
i make you all missunderstood.
and being a batu api is wrong, i know.
i wont hope that you'll forgive me, or accept my apologize,
just wanna let you two know I AM SORRY.
i'm happy and glad you all became friends again,
and no more sadness between you all.
i'm saying all this not because i admit everything is my fault,
but part of it,
i'll responsible.
i felt so sorry, really.

this apologize,
does not include xxx, ( i didnt write out your name because i respect you, not like you. )
what i wanna tell you is,
i didnt break the friendship between you and her, ( you know who.)
please dont blame everything on me.
i would not responsible this,
and ya,
dont simply use the f words to scold people if you're wrong too.
i admit what i did before is wrong,
but everything happens,
you're not part of it too.
you say it yourself,
you dont wanna involve.
but now, you're just making the thing get worst.
if you dont want to involve,
just dont say anything.
i realize why people dislike you now.

sorry if i say anything that is not the truth or hurt you.

once again,
SORRY.

Love is like a violin.

2008-08-17T13:32:00.000+08:00

16th August

my sister suggest to go to midvalley today. i also dont know why my parents allow me. so, went there around 12. then start to walk around. didnt saw anyone i knew, but my sister did. bought something for my friends too, and also for myself (: ya, i bought a pair of earrings for myself, a pair of earrings ( mickey ) for ling, a photo album, keychains for my friends too. bought something for my eldest sis too. :] she's coming back tomorrow. then, went home after that. oh, just celebrate with my family. we bought a very mini cake, hah. chocolate cake ^.^

what a birthday this year, (:

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit.

2008-08-10T19:28:00.000+08:00

I finally wake up to reality.
Last time,
you're always the one i miss, i love.
i hope you were mine.
but now,
i finally know everything isn't going right.
if that thing doesn't belongs to you,
it will not belongs to you forever.
and,
you're not belongs to me.
so, i should let you go free.
what i want is just your smile,
if you're happy,
then i'll be.
i'll always bless you.

i'll end everything here.
Hopes & Dreams.
this is all i want.

2008-08-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

if i'm hot temper, i'm so sorry about that.
if i scolded you before, i'm sorry too.
but i just wanna say, i'm not bullyshit.
maybe everyone of you think that i'm hurting you because of scolding,
I"M SO SORRY. truly.
i'm not forcing myself to say sorry, just..
sorry.

fly with your wings.

2008-08-03T14:34:00.000+08:00

p/s :

i really do trusted in you all the time. so why can't you trust me?
maybe you're right, everything is over.
if we force something to get together, then there's no meaning in it.

shut.

2008-08-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

I'M NOT HURT OR ANGRY,
and i dont need an answer from YOU.
explaination? i dont think i need one.
so, keep your words.
just, be silent.
that's more than anything.

A hundred thousand things to see.

2008-07-20T12:35:00.000+08:00

28th July

i stayed in school today because LM got the election. but at last, joeann told me they delayed. but i still stayed lah. have lunch at ipoh chicken rice shop with yiwei, maggieng,maggiesudo, ling & michelle. then, acompanied yiwei & maggieng go TTC. they're having tuition at 2. so we chit-chated. and candid. haha :D then, went to taman jaya. PLAYGROUND. haha so funny. we played till so crazy. then, went back to school at 3. cool down, then went to amcorp again. :X went to the saloon and maggie had a haircut. then, went back school again. took our bags, and walked out the school and met yiwei & maggieng.

then, wait for ling's sister to fetch us to her house at the bus stop. meiqi held a birthday party/bbq at her house. last minute we decided to go. so, meiqi came around 4.15. then, all of us squeeze into her car. reach her house around 4.45. then, we went to ling's room. and all of us showered. maggiesudo went out with sohwoeijye(herboyfriend). hweihng came in a sudden. oh, we shock. we called maggiesudo to come back, so, finally she came back at 6 something. then, she called her mom to come and fetch her. so, she went back at 6.30. and then, we go down to her kitchen to have our dinner. and we laugh like a sohpoh. hweihng still admit herself as ling's cousin. haha. then , we went back upstairs.

oh, then, some busybody( youknowwhoyourselfis), not counted as scold, open a conversation and talk with hweihng. she still called hweihng to be careful on monday. it's not your business at all, so just get lost. do you know what get lost mean? ohmygod, just dont pretend you're part of this case, and said some NONSENSE. just shut your mouth, will you? and, you dont even know what happen actually, so you said so much stuff for what? huh? scold you will just waste my time. uhh, it's your mouth anyway, you wanna say just say. IDONTGIVEASHIT.

okay, dont said that anymore. back to the post. we took some pictures using hweihng's phone. and ling called us go down and bbq. while we grilling, maggiesudo called us. haha. after a while, yiwei's mom came. she and michelle left. just left me and maggie there. then, we went back to use the computer. :D after that, my father came. so, that's the end.

to ***: just dont involve yourself in this. okay? will just get yourself in trouble.

2008-07-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAN BEE KEE!

16.07.08 (:

may all your wishes come true.

http://meiqisecretmoments.blogspot.com

everytime you change your mind.

2008-07-13T13:34:00.000+08:00

12th July

plan to go to watch the cheerleading and H&G. so, michelle's dad fetch me at 12.45 to bukit jalil. reach there, look for maggie. oh, saw her waiting us at the main entrance. and then, went inside and finding the right way to our seats. hmm, okay, finally found sinee. but, our school's already compete. erm. then, she called us to sit at the supporters there. so, we walked and try again to find the way to there. walk here walk there. haha, finally found. sit down and watch. after a while, we wanted to go buy some drinks and food. so, again =.= find the way to go out. okay, this time is more longer than the last one. keep on walking to the dead ends. but at last, we also found the way out lah. bought something to drink and eat. went back to our seats again. watch. oh, and maggie saw a handsome guy from SMK KDU. then, we are like stupids because keep on shouting. :/ took some pictures of him. but blur.. because maggie keep on shaking my hand while i was taking the photo, she's too *high*. haha. and she's the only one keep on shouting to support them. :X finally over, then we went out to take some pictures. oh, we looks like some stupids AGAIN because taking the photos and everyone pass by was looking at us. hmm.

okay then, michelle's dad came and fetch us. head to yiwei's house. reach there, then her mom brought us to buy our lunch. thanks to her mom lah, cause she paid for us. then, went back to her house and go into her room. then, i went to take my bath. after that, they helped me to straighten my hair. :/ and ya, till 6. go eat our *ju qeong fan*. mine was toooo hot. so, didnt finish. :/ so, her mom fetch us to school at 6.30. reach there around 7. saw maggiesudo. with his brother. haha, he's cute. (: and then, went to qm's toilet. prepare everything. took some pictures. in mag's phone. then, sit at the reading corner to wait for the concert to start. hmm. then, wait till 8 only the concert starts. went into the hall and watch. but just for a while, boring, so came back out. took some pictures. lazy to upload. too many. michelle's dad came around 8 something. and the concert ended at 9. so yi wei called her dad to come and fetch us. went back home around 10.

I found out that everything was a lie.

2008-07-10T18:10:00.000+08:00

after school, stayed in school with mags, hng & ling. went to reading corner and left our bags there, then have our lunch at ipoh chicken rice with yiwei. ordered food and eat it. then, yiwei went to TTC to have her tuition classes at 1.45. actually wanted to go back into school, but then mags says let's go to TAMAN JAYA. it was fun. HAHA. went to the first playground, that one was small. then saw another one which is bigger, so we go there. played, have fun, scream like hell. :D but one thing, is the hot sun. hmm. so hooooooot there although there's a big big big tree. suddenly, raining. :/ so no choice, must head back to school. oh then, went back and sit at reading corner. One guy, ** (can't say his name lah) went to find meeling. two chit chat a while, then we went home.

Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the pain and realizing that people always change.

You are always gonna be my love.

2008-07-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

GanMeeLing;

i dont know what happen to you today, suddenly like acting differently, like keep quite, keep asking you what happen, say nothing.
if is really we ignored you, so sorry lah. but if like that then you get mad, then i should get mad everyday.. haha. plus, when you're angry or keep quite, that look ah, ohmygosh.. so scary. :D
next time if we didnt talk to you, you can like say something then we sure will talk to you de mar..

maybe you too stress or something lah, but i will sure next time wont ignore you lah. (:

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.

2008-07-06T11:43:00.000+08:00

sister's project. she says very nice,so ask me to take it.

me+sisters' teddy bears.

dirty tortoise. :D

my sister's favourite band. LINKIN PARK.

father's new car. Toyota Vios.

call my name and save me from the dark.

2008-07-06T11:16:00.001+08:00

some photos took by my father in my sister's university( UNIMAS ).

corridor of my sister's room. ( the highest floor )

sister's room.

live right now, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.

2008-06-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

woke up at 8. have my breakfast, then went to piano class at 9 till 10. then, tuition teacher came on 11. but luckily she's having tuition with my sister. went to Raku Zen to celebrate my cousin, Eeva's birthday. one japanese buffet restoran near pavilion.if my dear sister, vikki saw this, she sure very envy lah hor. cause she's now in Sarawak. :] reach there around 12.15, the place's very nice. and then, we ordered japanese food. was ordered by my cousin's boyfriend, Shawn. he ordered a lot of food, but we ate all lah of course, and my aunt ordered a garlic rice for me. then, thanks for my grandma to help me finish the whole bowl. not that is not nice, but i was too full to eat. and yeah, my cousins, Joanne, Jordan & Jason gave a 3000++ handbag to Eeva. hmm. and then, dont know who else gave her a 4000++ handbag, Coach Handbag . cool hor. others just gave angpous. then, ate all the foods. full. and then, some went to one utama, some went to sungei wang, my aunt and sook kuan jie bring us to Pavilion. went to coach, searching for their handbags, and then walk walk walk. went into the Just Parfum. bought a Ralph perfume. Quite nice lah, cause the smell very light. And then, way back to my uncle's house. Have our dinner there. and then ate the cake bought by my cousin, Winnee. then went home. (:

i'm reading your note over again.

2008-06-28T12:56:00.000+08:00

My sister went to Sarawak's university in the morning. Hope she'll get use over there lah. And my father and mom also went there to accompany her, they'll come back on monday. i wanted to go there too, but parents doesn't allow to, cause got tuition and school.. :/ just hope she will be happy there lah.

ILOVE NANA. :D
watch that movie already, Mika Nakashima's cool. :D her singing is so nice (: lovehersomuch. :DDD

2008-06-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

EXAM finally over!!

hooray! exam finish! hah. finally finally finally. :D freeeeeee (: didnt touch the keyboard for one week. ohmygodness! finally can feel the computer. :DDDD hahaha. okay, nothing much to say. and yeah, i'm in the club jingcao now. (: just interviewed.

oh i like this guy :D